family, food, health, Uncategorized

Has Motherhood made me fat..?

I’d be lying if I said I haven’t struggled with weight issues on and off my whole life. I remember as a kid having a full deli sandwich with a damn LARGE JAMBA JUICE instead of like, I don’t know, maybe a glass of water? I’ll spare the details of the rest of my childhood/teen health rollercoaster so lets fast forward to 3.5 years ago. After having Sean I couldn’t nurse for very long because I was bordering on anemia, so right away the one thing that is really intended to help with weight loss after delivery had hurled itself out the window. Ok no problem (I’d convince myself) and just went about life trying to eat a bit better and take the baby on walks every day, which in retrospect probably lasted maybe 20 minutes if that. As his first year went on I was still out of shape, and when he was around 8 months old my extremely rude gallbladder turned against me. Now let me just take a moment to say that I would not wish a gallbladder attack on my worst enemy, it truly feels as if you are dying. So one of the first things you need to do in preparation for gallbladder removal/ life after is to cut down on fatty foods and eat much healthier so I did because I was sick as a dog, with jaundice on my skin and eyes and just having overall pain. After the surgery I was eating better and losing weight but thats the funny thing about life, it doesn’t really pause for you to get your shit together. So yeah sure I lost some weight but stalled, and then recently started gaining again as Sean has gotten older and I am doing more in terms of getting him to activities but not making time for myself. And yes I know that’s a recurring theme in most of my posts but it really is a huge reality for us stay-at-home parents. The funny thing is that my son eats so healthy, loves salads and fruit more than anything, and here I am just grabbing whatever I can when I get a moment and not caring what I’m putting in my body as long as everything keeps chugging along for our family. Well I’m writing this post to share with others but also to keep myself accountable. I know I will always deal with an unhealthy relationship to food but I’m hoping to end this extreme rollercoaster ride and make my body’s needs as important as the rest of my familys. So, did motherhood make me fat? No, Ive always had weight problems but I sure as hell have let the responsibilities of motherhood serve as a crutch and thats just not an acceptable outlook. Next time I post about my health I hope to be sharing positive changes and feeling better, but I find comfort in knowing I’m not alone in all of it. Alright guys thanks for listening, ’til next time XO Chrissy


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