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Even the best of times cause anxiety..

This summer has been the busiest one I can remember. Being in all of these weddings in a row, while an honor, has been a bit more stressful than I was imagining. As someone who has had anxiety since I was 18, I know that even though staying busy can be a good thing, sometimes when times get TOO busy, it can really send my anxiety into high gear. The thing about anxiety is that it comes from nowhere sometimes and other times it’s as if your body knows you’re under a lot of stress and is trying to tell you because your brain hasn’t really realized it yet. That seems to be exactly what’s going on lately. Even though these events are wonderful, the planning and execution and traveling is starting to add up and I can physically feel it. On a side note, planes make my skin crawl so that is another huge contributing factor. We also just found out that we can’t take our dog up to the first wedding..which may I reiterate is this weekend so that’s just another hurdle to have to jump on top of every day life and trying to get ready for the trip itself. Yes I am aware that there are much worse things in life and I never take my health and these experiences for granted, however anxiety spares very few of us and it truly does turn easy events into difficult ones when it occurs. I guess I’m writing this because it’s whats been on my mind a lot lately and anxiety/mental health issues have had such a stigma but I do see people being more open about their problems and I think it’s important for all of us who suffer to remember that it really is so common and we aren’t alone in these struggles. Luckily my anxiety got much less extreme as I entered my mid-twenties but I’m fairly sure it is something I will have to deal with all of my life and finally accepting that has actually helped me see things in a more positive light. Just knowing that I will always need to work on my coping skills and management is ok with me and I’m aware of it. As the bachelorettes and showers have come to an end, this weekend marks the first of three weddings in a row and, just like a rollercoaster, I know that the anticipation of leading up to this is what’s causing the most of the anxiety and once I’m in the moment it will start to dissipate. Thank you for listening to a seemingly random ramble but if it resonates with you at all I hope you know you’re definitely not alone. I have a fitness update coming soon but wanted to write this while it was on my mind for those who can relate and also for myself, which is truly the greatest part of writing. Until next time, XO Chrissy

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Hey Mamas (and papas)…it’ll be ok

This afternoon I got back from a weekend in Wine Country for my friends bachelorette party. I am the matron of honor and we put together a pretty relaxing weekend of wine tasting, food and relaxation; exactly what she (and the rest of us old ladies) wanted. I can pretty confidently say that this was one of the few times I’ve had this year to truly chill a bit and not have a million things to do for other people; the thing is, I still felt the physical stress that I carry around with me every day, even when I’m not fully aware of it. I’m sure I’ve mentioned before but I’m in three wedding this summer which means multiple events, several of which I’m hosting/hosted, increased expenses etc. And while I’m so happy to be involved in all of it, having everything back-to-back on top of everyday priorities (and my dad having surgery the day before I left) has been pretty stressful and today when I got home I found myself just crying. When I got home the boys went to the park so I could unpack a bit but Sean didn’t want to come back and was having a tantrum upon entering the house, which he hasn’t done like in a while and was screaming bloody murder. So you know those moments when you don’t even realize you’re overwhelmed then everything hits you out of nowhere and you burst in to tears..? Well, good, now we know we aren’t the only ones! I always find myself saying “What are you complaining about? Things could be so much worse” and that is an understatement. We have a wonderful family, a roof over our head etc. and even so, parenting has this way of testing you and pushing you to limits you didn’t even know you had. So, fellow mamas (and papas,) stay-at-home or working or single parent or grandparent, adopted or blood, whoever you may be..if you’re raising a human there are going to be times you feel in over your head and wonder how you’ll get through everything in one piece, but you will and you are strong. These moments pass, and I know one day when Sean is off to college I’ll think how silly I was and what I would do to have these days back. It’ll all be ok, and we do the best we can. I’m not sure that there was a clear point to this post and maybe it was a form of relief for me to write this, but it it resonates with you somehow, I hope you remember that you are a rock star and juggle this thing called life the best you can. New recipes coming this week but thank you for listening to this random post. Until next time xo Chrissy

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